Not much is going on really. Someone new owns our apts now and is really fixing up the place. Maybe by this time next year, living here won’t suck…as much. He has lots of plans for this place.
Also, i’ve managed to get a lot more pages up on the downloads site, leaving mostly the difficult ones left to do. Ugh. hehe.
I think I’m starting to stay online too long. I usually stay online 10 PM-5ish AM weekdays. And maybe come back online to check e-mail around noon, when i wake up. But now myself staying online all afternoon until my dad usually gets home from work.
*sigh* My life is here. When i disconnect, i’m no one again. Just a useless overweight person who everyone stares at sickeningly. I now regret having my picture online. Because some make fun of me just as I have in real life before.
I slowly got addicted to the internet. The more I connected, the more I pushed away my real life, and now I have none. The only life I have now is here in front of this keyboard. If you could even call it that…
I flood myself with media. TV. DVD. Shows. Movies. All to blind myself from how terrible I have made my life. I sometimes find that I have failed this life, and I’m just wait for myself to “reboot”… to die and to start over. Hopefully not here on this terrible planet.
This planet has many terrible things. War. Discrimination. Poverty. Pollution. It all adds up. It all collides to kill a once-beautiful planet. It’s all happened before onn a planet you people call Mars. And it will happen again.